The sun is shining brighter, the sky is bluer, the grass is greener and the world is spinning ever so wonderfully.

8.43am. I just got out of bed after ignoring my first alarm on my handphone. It didn't help much though, cos I've already set another alarm 15 minutes later. Feeling tired of life, I boringly headed to the toilet. When I came back, woah, 5 missed calls and 2 SMSes. I sensed something was up. When I checked that the SMSes and most of the missed calls were from Ethel, I knew it was it. And it it was. Read the first SMS once, then proceeded on to the second one, which confirmed that I did not misread the first SMS. I'm not sure about this, but my face probably went from :| to :) to :D hehehehehehehehehe.

Approved/Successful

Everything went surreal for a few milliseconds, then I started absorbing everything in, and yes, what I placed much hope on, what I needed, what I wanted to expect, were all there. Okay this might sound really exaggerating, and even the title sounds a little overboard, but quite a lot has happened throughout that trying period between 31st March to 14 April 2008, so much drama that I can write a storyline about it and sell it to television producers (of course I'm kidding).

I really want to thank all those who helped me, gave me all sorts of advises (including those I really cannot consider at all like "What if your appeal failed?"), and even prayed for me. Awwww. I know I bugged quite a few people over this (like Cass, Xi Xiang and Warm) and sound extremely desperate and extremely depressed. Hahaha thinking back, it was quite funny. Okay it's not funny. It was a horrible period of time. But thank you.

"Stop And Stare" reflects uncannily what was going through my mind during that time. (Not a good thing)

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could (somehow)
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see


Okay, now that I'm starting to notice what is going on around, there is this SFMA food competition that is really insane and hefty and I am quite dreading it, while anticipating it at the same time. Hm, I should stop these ironic comments. Finally, walking in the rain has never felt this good in weeks, not that I walk in the rain often, but still, you probably do get what I mean :D